Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Lost in Time.

Remembering....
Like an old photograph- lost in time.
To pull old memories...
where hurt and love collide.
Confusion like fog, clouding thoughts.
Endless moments.
Lost in time.

Can you hold on?

Take the time today
To remember great people
Just for a moment.

Take Time to Remember

A young couple walks home, sirens blast, people hurry. A defeated newspaper lies crumpled in the gutter, the headline WAR BREAKS OUT IN POLAND glares at the passerby. The woman kept her hand on the swollen bump on her stomach, wary. He tightens his arm around her.
The husband walks over to the liquor cabinet, the woman sees him taking shots of whiskey, and his fingers trembling as he reads the newspaper over and over again. He walks over to his wife, fingers running through his hair. He shows her the newspaper once again, and he places an enrolment letter in front of her.

Three months later, he walks over to his wife placing his hand on the woman’s ever growing bump, his eyes whispering the words, “I’ll be back.”
“Flash” As soon as the photo was taken he was gone, the photo showing a tear rolling down his fresh shaven beard onto his new uniform and on his polished boots.

5 years later, the war was soon over but still no sign of her dear husband.
“Happy birthday, I wish your father was here to see this day, your fifth birthday.” Elizabeth whispered to herself as she tucked in her little boy under the covers.
The doorbell rang, Elizabeth rushes to the door. A man in uniform with a sealed envelope came in and sat down at the table.
Tears rolled down her face, eyes whimpering, thoughts rolling in like tidal waves, waves of tears landed on the envelope. Department of National Defense it read, but all that you could make out now were the tears forming new words, words of sorrow and pain.

Every morning for as long as I could possibly imagine she would glare at that god forsaken photo wishing that the war never started, the newspaper was still laying on the desk. Even the whiskey glass lay there undisturbed since that dreaded day, a layer of dust engulfing it.
Out side of London Ontario, in a small house on a big farm, excitement was brewing. A wedding was to be held, a proud strong living replica of his father, Maximilian was to marry a beautiful woman with a strong, loving character named Elli.
Max was soon to have a son, he nervously paced back and forth in his fathers old house, running his fingers over the photograph of his father, hands trembling. Small blurs appeared on the photo, drops rolling down the photo. He looks left of the photo to see a telegraph.
Deep in trenches on the outskirts of France a strong army of 100 men was attacking the German front lines. Then Max’s father Luke saw a wounded comrade. He sprinted on the hard beaten soil; the air was full of a strange fog as he ran back to his allies. He saw a glimpse of sunlight, a silver ball of light was thundering to the ground. It released its tongue, like a serpent crawled its way over to us. Its hot embers turning everything in its clutches to a dark pile of dust, blowing in the wind. The monster sucking the souls of many, Luke’s eyes were so pale you could see right through them. His legs missing, his skin scorched by the monster, all that was left was his soul floating in the wind among the ashes.
“In his name, I will name my boy Luke Watson in memory of my father.” Max Announced.
Max looked at the newspaper, and the enrolment letter next to the photograph of his father. The letter seamed to have a feeling of dread in it, but reminisced of love, pain. The newspaper, yellowed, showed a group of eager young men, a rip running down the photograph. It’s what the war had done, Max thought. Left us broken, alone. He runs a hand through his graying hair, pins a poppy on his suit. Moves on. Thinks about clients, business deals. Never showing the photograph of his father that he keeps in his heart.



- Written by Peter Skrajny, age 12. Edited by Joanna Skrajny, age 15.

Next winter I retire.

I look at the world.
I see it in it's entirety.
I see mountains, oceans, streams.
I see cities, taxis, people.
Dirty clothes, ditry faces, dirty hearts.

I see the pain in the world.
Mothers hold their children and say it's going to be alright.
Everything is going to be alright.
All lies.
Yet - they still manage to
kiss them goodnight.
Move on.

I see cruel words
cruel people.
I see lovers entwined in an alley,
drugs dealt in daylight.
A little girl sips her lemonade.

What do I love, when I love life?

I love love.




I love you.

Monday, November 9, 2009

The Pursuit of Happyness.

Happiness. We all look for it. Whether it's through financial stability, friends, hobbies, a lot of us are on what seems to be the ultimate goal in our life. Happiness.
What defines happiness?
Why does it seem like such an important thing to be happy?
Do you have to be selfish in order to obtain happiness?
Is happiness only achieved at "the end"?
How do we create or find happiness in our lives?

This question has been running through my mind for a very long time, and like many controversial topics, this is one that is completely subjective to the individual. However, I myself have managed to narrow down my own parameters of what it means to be happy. And it all began to make sense when I came to this stunning conclusion this morning:

The pursuit of happiness is the source of all unhappiness.

We all look to see where the sense is in life - we all try to find some common ground. The truth is, the more we look to see where we can trust, we get hurt. Life's not fair, but neither is life unfair. Life is just the way it is. We live, we love. We're all just children standing in a white space. Nothing.
It seems that the best we can do is lie to each other, hold hands, and say that everything is going to be just fine. But we don't know that. What do we know, come to think of it?

What we do know, is that once in a while, there comes along a moment that feels a little different. It makes us want to cry, scream, make love until you pass out for the next twelve hours. It's what moves us to want to become something when we grow up, to represent a moment or a motivation that we all have in our lives. This term, this feeling of contentment - well, we call this happiness. That one moment where everything falls into place and feels just right, the way it's supposed to be.

But how do we go from feeling lost to feeling completely happy with ourselves? In some cases, I can agree that this is hard. For one thing, happiness seems very highly dependent on the situation that you are in. I'm sure that people who were deported to a concentration camp during the second world war were unhappy mainly because of circumstances that were beyond their grasp. But on the flip side as well,-when you try to control everything because things are within your grasp, are you happy? In the end, is the pursuit of your own individual happiness better than trying to help others become happy? It's your life, yes. But how important is it, really? And in the end, when we die, do we understand this? Personally, I think that since human faith and understanding is based completely upon human intellect, we will never know the answer.So now - what do you think? What does happiness mean to you? Does pursuing that which you believe in, really make you happier by the end of it all? Well here's my answer:

HAPPINESS DOESN'T EXIST.

So here we have two thoughts that completely counteract with the American definition of happiness - the thought that the pursuit of happiness is the source of all unhappiness, and that happiness in itself doesn't exist. Relax. I'll explain.

If we, as human beings, should spend less time worrying about why we aren't happy; and instead focused on coping with the situation at hand; our society would work far more efficiently. Too much effort is spent in our heads, wondering, worrying. Trying to figure things out so they work for us. None of us can drive the car of life, so why the hell should I give you the keys? The point is, we don't know. So relax. Enjoy what you have, and what you don't. Celebrate the happy moments, grow from the sad ones. The sad ones in the end shape us to become the person that we are today.
I argue with the very notion of happiness' existence, and instead, replace it with other words. Contentment, passion, love. Happiness in itself doesn't exist. That's just some ridiculous notion we as people have developed over the years. In our strive for perfection, we ended up going three steps backwards. We look to pour our trust in something that will never happen. So begin to trust the imperfections as well, love them. It's our sadness that shapes who we are, it's our trust in the good in all that makes us human. Pain simply shows that we love - and love; well, that's really what it's all about.

Friday, November 6, 2009

The Multiple Uses Of Duct Tape!

"This problem would be solved if I just had some duct tape..."

How many times have we each said this? Haha Well, if you encounter strange random life events often- as I do, I am sure you have said this many times. So, I have decided to dedicate a whole post to the multiple uses of duck tape.

"Duct tape is like the force: It has a dark side and a light side and it holds the universe together." -Carl Zwanzig


In the book "Geeks Guide to World Domination" it says that a snowboarder was on his medal run, when his binding broke off. He then duct taped it back on, and finished 3rd- winning the bronze medal. Awesome. Also, in that book... it states that during the Apollo 13 mission, a hole was fixed in the shuttle with duct tape.


Who hasn't fixed their shoe with some duct tape?










Some other uses are...
-Hanging Posters
-Fix broken book binding
-Use as wallpaper
-Patch ripped clothing
-Twist a long piece into a rope
-Tape annoying people to walls, floor, ceiling, or bed
-Duct tape wallet!!!
-For use in the absence of staples
-Roofing shingles
-Effective for muting humans
-Home security system (tape windows and doors)
-Make a boat
And oh so many more...go to Google for more ideas.

Thanks for your time! And remember....use that duct tape!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Out of the way,



"I can't see the forest with all these goddamn trees in the way"

Monday, November 2, 2009

Corrupt or Broken?

Does evil exist? Is it inevitable? What is evil? Is it not just an absence of good? Hmmm Interesting hey? To see good in everyone- not an easy task. But is there evil? For the sake of interest... I grabbed the definition of evil off Dictionary.com

-Adjective 1. morally wrong or bad; immoral; wicked: evil deeds; an evil life. 2. harmful; injurious: evil laws. 3. characterized or accompanied by misfortune or suffering; unfortunate; disastrous: to be fallen on evil days. 4. due to actual or imputed bad conduct or character: an evil reputation. 5. marked by anger, irritability, irascibility, etc.: He is known for his evil disposition. (This is just the adjective. It is also listed as a noun, adverb, and idiom.)

Evil just maybe, is simply... the absence of good. Through circumstances, sadness, pain, and hate- we build walls. We block our hearts. Are we capable of being completely corrupt? Or is there an element of good in each of us? A part of us, that can't stop loving. That part of us, could be nearly undetected...but still remains. The sun shines through the clouds, and for just a moment... everything is right. So where does that leave this debate? Nowhere. We are broken people. Can we put the pieces back together? It is sort of like black vs. white. But we all live in the gray.